Moment of Truth

My rough patch is hopefully mostly behind me...

I completely believe in self improvement daily. You can always be a better you. It is much easier to stay comfortable than to get uncomfortable and change your life for the better.  Even if it's a little change.

It is so easy to let the skepticism of others get in your ear and convince you that you can't do something. Or that it is dumb. Or that it is wrong. Or that you can't. I have been such a unique individual (or so I feel) my entire life and have always taken pride in that. I have always loved that I saw the world differently. 

I have been digging deep within myself to figure out why all of a sudden I have changed my perspective. Why has being a mother drained me of my own self? Just because I have a marriage license, a husband, a home, and children I can no longer be myself? I understand that I most likely won't be BY MYSELF because children tend to be clingy. But what happened to ME? Where did I go?

I go up and down and back and forth trying to recover that past Stephanie I used to be so proud of. This new, anxious, worrisome Stephanie has GOT TO GO! I can kick butt when I am put to the test, but most of the time my life is not mine. I allow everyone and everything around me take priority over myself and I eventually affects everyone. I deserve time to myself to do things for me. 

Others do not have to join me, or even believe in what I do. But I know in my gut that I need people in my life to feel fulfilled. I need dance in my life to feel fulfilled. I need to help others and share my knowledge with others to be fulfilled. Without these parts of my life, I ache. I feel empty or incomplete. I don't need to justify or explain why I feel the way that I feel. Sometimes you just can't. Sometimes it's nobody's business and it should stay between the big you and the little you.

I believe you can be whoever you want to be. And even I get stuck in a rut, but I never quit. I go back to the beginning and start again. This time is easier, And each time after that will be easier. But don't quit. Trust yourself that you are on the right path.  That is the moment of truth! When it comes right to it...WHAT DO YOU WANT??? That's the first step. You need to identify what you want first and prioritize. This is your own list. Look at it everyday and never forget what makes you tick inside. Just dive in and see what happens, Take control of your journey. 

Let's Go!!!